OH IT'S JUST MERCURY AGAIN...

Make positive choices daily. That sounds so simple, right? Choose your happy. So why have I woken up with that mindset everyday for two weeks and then something just brings me down? Folks inability to use the vertical pedal. The use of indicator lights incorrectly. Folks all up in your Kool-aid, talking bout some "Oh, Yeah... what are you doing." Other people's impatience and attitudes just rubbing off on you. Crying for no reason. Reflecting yourself into tears. Fighting with your past. Struggling to not go to the bad place. Yeah, see, that's a lot of negativity in my genuinely tryna be happy bubble and it is hard to fight, y'all.

I mean, I'm trying. My nutrition is good, I'm exercising like five times a week, I'm reading to relax, I'm caught up on school work (like...working ahead), even going to sleep at a decent hour. I'm doing all the things I'm supposed to be doing that I know are good and well and that "they" say are what keep me happy and healthy and I'm still fighting to not dip. I blame that bitch Mercury. Mercury in retrograde and then that killer PMS leading into it had me feeling some type of way. I'm having arguments with myself, some, just wait till it's over and then see if you still feel this way. It's totally not just you. You got this. Daily pep talks with my grown self just to do the things I'm supposed to do.

Not that I see those pep talks as a bad thing, but dang it, it's hard to keep saying the same thing to yourself everyday and still falling in that slump. I mean, I've never been one to give up. My mama has always assured me that I can get thru anything and eventually I will. It will all work out some way or another. I know, I mean I've seen it happen time and time again and this will be the same but sometimes you just gotta let it out and say, "Okay, this is hard. Universe, gimme a minute to catch up thanks!" It might not actually do anything but it's good to ask for help. It's good to know you're strong enough to know when you're overwhelmed and in over your head. My mama is right, it will be ok. Just breathe in and breathe out and find your patience.

It's usually not as bad at it looks at first. however, it's usually worse than it looks like from the outside peering in so if people don't listen or shut you down, find new people. You don't need that kind of negativity in your life. You're doing a fabulous job at life. You're still here it. If you need to vent, I have to ears and two eyes and am happy to listen. Keep on, keeping on, beautiful human!

*👐👐👐👐I really needed that pep talk, thanks self😜*

If you needed it to, don't worry, I got you!