Dig Deeper

Sometimes the well isn't empty, maybe you just need to dig deeper. I had avowed myself to write weekly. I attempted to make that a "Thursdays are for blogging" deal but if you're like me sometimes the words flow too early and sometimes to late. Other times you need to say the things right then cause folks need to hear them or maybe waiting would make them irrelevant and something else has already happened. I mean, our perspectives are ever evolving. Life changes daily. Our dreams grow, our goals get met. Sometimes we have to destroy the vision board and start over. My point is, tis nearly end of day Sunday and for the week I said no words.

I still don't really have any words. I'm kinda feeling the life pause for a moment. It's just what I needed for a bit. I had a ridiculous rush of anxiety in the last 2 weeks and the world literally did not move, Okay, maybe it was figuratively but it just stopped. It wasn't good or bad but all these little fissures happened and I just new the volcano was gonna erupt. I saw the hair on my arms raise and the animals scurry, but alas. I'm still hear. The rumbles faded. So I decided to take that signal from the Universe and breathe for a moment. To just be still. To just be.

It was all pretty amazing timing in my personal opinion. I accepted somethings about myself, didn't really come to terms of happiness with them but accepted that they were things and I was gonna have to deal with them. My life pause included a little less movement, (not total I still managed some minimal strength training + this wonderful pushup challenge -__-, I kid. It's great) a few more carbs, and a little more quiet time. School is over for the semester. I did pretty well. But tomorrow starts anew. It's a culmination of a couple things but positive things.

For one, it's pay week which always relieves a little tension because as the majority of the population I live paycheck to a few days before paycheck. And tomorrow I start my second cleanse of the year and I can't wait to cleanse the body and refuel with the best nutrition I can. But my favorite thing about tomorrow is I get my yoga back. Yoga with Adriene is great at home, however, being in that chapel as majestic as it is with like minded lovers of the yoga to cleanse my soul with some breaths and good movement is what I've been longing for 6 months.

That one day a week where I get some good yoga in a blissful place. It's been a long time coming but I am thankful.I wish there were more helpful, affordable options in my town for this purpose but there aren't so this is my saving grace and I'm so thankful to have found it 2 short years ago. I hope to one day be able to grant that peace and wellness on my own after more dedicated practice so that others can feel those weights release and their soul filled up. Until then I shall take my moment as learning and chances to just be and fly with them.

May your Monday bring you happiness and a week filled with blessings. Namaste, beautiful human!